Tamra Decide is opening up about her determination to stop The Actual Housewives of Orange County.

On Sunday (March 9), Tamra, 57, abruptly introduced that she was seemingly quitting the Bravo sequence shortly after filming for season 19 started.

In the course of the Wednesday (March 12) episode of her Two Ts in a Pod podcast, Tamra admitted that she’s been struggling currently with some “private issues.”

Hold studying to seek out out extra…“I believe I simply hit a wall. There’s a lot happening in my life and it’s simply I don’t know,” Tamra stated, including that she’s been in search of assist by way of remedy. “I simply simply hit a wall and I really feel like I’m gonna be in a full depressed mode.”

“I went into the season not realizing, unsure, very anxious and simply coping with some stuff by way of remedy, and you recognize that basically breaks you all the way down to your lowest level,” Tamra defined. “I’m like, ‘Ought to I simply stop? As a result of it’s simply I really feel prefer it’s breaking me down.’”

She went on to say that these private issues finally turned an excessive amount of for her to deal with after she realized she couldn’t get “out of the funk.”

“After I get like this, my physique simply shuts down, It simply fully shuts down,” Tamra stated. “And I can simply sit in a single place and simply stare on the wall for hours. And that’s how I really feel and it’s actually arduous to movie like that whenever you really feel like that.”

Whereas she didn’t go into element about what’s precipitated these struggles, she did acknowledge that co-host and shut buddy Teddi Mellencamp‘s well being points have been weighing closely on her.

Final month, Teddi, 43, underwent surgical procedure to have tumors faraway from her mind and medical doctors not too long ago discovered extra tumors on her mind and lungs.

“Teddi gave me a pep speak and that’s like the primary time I’ve laughed in so lengthy,” Tamra shared. “Like, we laughed, and she or he simply yelled at me and stated, ‘Take heed to me, I’ve to be bald and fats proper now and going by way of this. You get your ass again over there.’”

“I simply began laughing. So I believe I’m going to see her immediately,” she added. “I believe that’s gonna pull little little bit of spark again into me.”

Discover out what Andy Cohen stated after Tamra seemingly stop.