Olympic athlete Marion Jones is not operating away from her previous.

The previous track-and-field star — who received three gold medals and two bronze medals on the 2000 Sydney Olympics and was later stripped of them after admitting that she used performance-enhancing medication — is dealing with her demons head-on together with her look on Particular Forces: World’s Hardest Check. 

And years after she was despatched to jail for mendacity to federal authorities and banned from her sport, she additionally acknowledges the affect her actions have had on her family members.

“After I was sentenced, I had two younger kids, too younger for them to grasp, figuring out that I had accomplished unsuitable,” Jones, 49, says in a confessional. “To me, the toughest half was simply figuring out in some unspecified time in the future, they have been going to should cope with the truth of mother’s decisions.” 

She added, “Through the years, I’ve shared my honest apology for letting down so many individuals and it’s time to maneuver on. It’s not a solution that some folks will like, however that’s how I really feel now.”

In 2008, Jones served six months at a federal girls’s jail in Fort Value, Texas for her crimes, which additionally included her involvement in a check-fraud scheme.

“I am placing myself again within the public highlight, which I purposely selected to not be part of for thus lengthy, however I am again to see actually what I can do,” Jones mentioned. “The toughest days of my life throughout that point.”

Within the second episode of the collection, Jones revealed that she spent 49 days in solitary confinement whereas in jail for combating one other inmate.

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“If I’ve to struggle, I’ll struggle,” she mentioned, whereas dealing with off towards Kayla Nicole in a hand-to-hand fight problem during which Jones later injured her ribs.

So far as the psychological toll her previous conduct has taken, the previous athlete — who received the NCAA basketball nationwide championship as a participant at North Carolina and who later performed a season-and-a-half for WNBA’s former workforce the Tulsa Shock in 2010 — is conscious of all of it.

“There are days the place I truly am grateful for among the, what I prefer to say, hiccups which have occurred in my life, as a result of they’ve made me stronger, higher, extra balanced, and with out that have, I actually would not be the place I am at at the moment,” she mentioned.

Jones later added, “I can not return and alter issues, however I’ve come right here to set an instance for my kiddos that braveness is stepping out when you do not need to with the chance that there is going to be critics, there’s going to be opinions, however you simply do not disappear.”

Particular Forces: World’s Hardest Check airs Wednesdays at 8 p.m. ET on Fox.