James Van Der Beek is opening up about his most cancers battle.

The 48-year-old Dawson’s Creek alum spoke out about his battle with Stage 3 colorectal most cancers in a submit on social media.

Within the submit, he defined the way it additionally affected his marriage to Kimberly Van Der Beek in addition to the lives of their six children—Olivia, 14, Joshua, 13, Annabel, 11, Emilia, 8, Gwendolyn, 6, Jeremiah, 2.

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“At the moment’s my birthday, and it has been the toughest 12 months of my life,” he defined.

“Once I was youthful, I used to outline myself as an actor…which was by no means actually all that fulfilling. After which I turned a husband, and that was significantly better. After which I turned a father, and that was the final word,” he mentioned.

“I may outline myself then as a loving, succesful, sturdy, supportive husband, father, supplier, steward of the land that we’re so fortunate to stay on. And for a very long time, that felt like a extremely good definition to the query, ‘Who am I? What am I?’ After which this 12 months, I needed to look my very own mortality within the eye.”

“I needed to come nostril to nostril with loss of life,” he continued.

“And all of these definitions that I cared so deeply about have been stripped from me. I used to be away for remedy, so I may now not be a husband that was useful to my spouse. I may now not be a father who may decide up his children and put them to mattress and be there for them. I couldn’t be a supplier as a result of I wasn’t working.”

James mentioned he “couldn’t even be a steward of the land” as a result of he would generally be too weak to prune timber.

“As I transfer by this therapeutic portal towards restoration, I wished to share that with you as a result of I believe that revelation that got here to me was due in no small half to all of the prayers and the love that had been directed towards me. So I supply that to you, nonetheless it sits in your consciousness, nonetheless it resonates—run with it.”

“And so I used to be confronted with the query,” he continued, “If I’m only a too-skinny, weak man alone in an condominium with most cancers, what am I?”

“I meditated and the reply got here by,” he mentioned.

“I’m worthy of God’s love, just because I exist. And if I’m worthy of God’s love, shouldn’t I even be worthy of my very own? And the identical is true for you.”

He added: “And if the phrase ‘God’ journeys you up, I definitely don’t know, I can’t declare to know what God is or clarify God. My efforts to hook up with God are an ongoing course of that may be a fixed unfolding thriller to me. But when it’s a set off, it feels too non secular, you’ll be able to take the phrase ‘God’ out and your mantra can merely be, ‘I’m worthy of affection.’ Since you are.”

“Thanks for the love and prayers, everybody. Have a blessed day,” he concluded.

We’re wishing the very best to James and his household.

It was additionally revealed that he was promoting gadgets to pay for his costly most cancers remedy.